*I've decided after good example to write some diary pages with toughts
and events.*

*Oh, in case anybody fails to understand, I'd like to remind them
that these pages are copyrighted, and that everything found here may not
be redistributed in any other way then over this direct link without my
prior consent. That includes family, christianity, and other cheats. The
simple reason is that it may well be that some people have been ill informed
because they've spread illegal 'copies' of my materials even with modifications.
Apart from my moral judgement, that is illegal, and will be treated as
such by me. Make as many references to these pages as you like, make hardcopies,
but only of the whole page, including the html-references, and without
changing a iota or tittel...*

*And if not? I won't hesitate to use legal means to correct wrong
that may be done otherwise. And I am serious. I usually am. I'm not sure
I could get 'attempt to grave emotional assault' out of it, but infrigement
on copyright rules is serious enough. And Jesus called upon us to respect
the authorities of state, so christians would of course never do such a
thing. Lying, imagine that.*

The idea of the diary is still valid though, so at least it should me marked that I find it relevant to make certain ideas and thoughts publicly readable enough in articulated enough form.

As I've written about, I've some years ago found counterpressure in my life to the point where lets say family has even been willing to steep to the level of trying to get me officially enough declared insane, which luckily never fell through, but at the idea is bad enough, and I'm quite aware that there are people that are not capable of taking the defense I was forced to take against systems and people that seem determined to revive old lets say european evils all too much.

And as I've also written before, I'm not willing to take any nonsense about not having been or being the person that I have been adn am, in full possession and control of my wit, with no lapse capabilities even to lead in lets say spearpoint and high profile enough positions (naturally where that fits my capacities), and or in my capabilities for 'normal' and important human behaviour where such is possible or desirable, because people and systems like I have encountered are getting nothing from me in terms of claiming my place, or making me look bad or uncapable in any way at all.

Zwaninul (Joe, one of the few realy well known jazz pianists/ keyboardists) and von Brown both lived under nazi regime before the wanted to or could get to the US, I read, and honestly, there are people and groups I do not without reason in my opinion suspect to hold major sympathy for the system that only a handfull of decades ago has been so shamefully beaten from the face of the earth, and who would in actual fact not even hesitate much to put it right back in power. I would in general prefer to be in the us already for years, unfortunately letting it wait trusting a party of possibly similar nature, and I am regularly reminded why that is, and surprised at the limitations, unfreedoms, general stupidity and giving away of natural authority that appearently so many are even consciously willing to want to live with.

I had I nice enough jam session yesterday, and good enough to eat, and luckily am able now at least to do things that seriously interest me, and even socially things are awkward and uneasy but at least not completely retarded at the moment, so I don't think I write much from lets say unfair state of mind, but when I pray, observe, look around, watch the news, it surprises me what a misery many people find around the in their own lives and society. And in so many cases apearently even willingly and knowingly, for instance we have had the constituation stuff, the revoluations, the wars, the nazis out of power by utter display of uncapableness, the 60's the have some idea of what life may be about, lots of luxuries and official freedoms and practical possibilities, and now what should happen?

The beast must receive authority for ever molech or baal sacrificed child to be sold to the next antichrist? Normal social and professional relations must always be subjected to suppressions by the SS and approval of the planbureau and oppression of the local or global maffia? Casinos and cells Some time ago I took pictures at a casino, I didn't play there, but of course I too am aware of the fact that on the average, money accumulates in the casino, the average direction of moneyflow is inward to the casino, not outward, following or writing the law of great numbers, as long as the bank isn't broken, which may be possible in a few cases, but normally not very likely.

The trust in that law is considerable.

I've never heard about casino owner lie awake at night worries about expectation values from statistics being not met. The idea of probabilities is not too hard to figure out for simple basics. A dice has 6 sides, it is thrown mainly randomly, so we'll get one side with a probability of one out of 6, unless God is capable and willing to play with the dice, which Einstein too seems to have conceeded He doesn't seem to do. And experiment as a good (and probably only) test of theory in the 'harder' sciences for sure, has show incredible reliability of such simple enough statistical considerations for centuries already, so most serious scientists will have no problem at all acknowledging and reasoning on the basis of the law of great numbers, which makes the expectations value for the number sixes after repeated throwing of the dice of n/6 indeed the expectation value, and all the better for larger n.

Suppose we take dices, normal ones, and take as an experiment the throwing of 6-es, lets say we take 6 dices, throw them, and are interested in the number of 6-es we throw, lets say the probability that we throw at least one 6.

On itself it is reasonable to take the probablity expectation value, reverse it, and say that we have fair chance of throwing at least one 6 with 6 dices. But what is the actual probability? If we do our math like statisticians right, we can take the probabilities of the combined unrelated probabilities of throwing one or more sixes, weighed by the number of possible permutations, 6 for 1 out of 6, 6! divided by (6-2)! (where ! stands for faculty, the latter is the so many out of so many or a over b formula), or effectively 6 times 5. Then 3 out of six, regardless of order,which would be 6! /(6-3)!, etc.

The combined probabilities on itself are easy enough, because there is no conditional component, the probabilities are independent, so 1 six is 1/6 times 5/6 to the power of 5, etc. Normalizing the number of possibilities for permutations is easy enough, the total number of possibible dice combinations equals 6 to the power of 6.

As we know, in statistics we always have the option of taking the complement of a probablity, because all probabilities add up to 1, so we could also compute the probability for no sixes at all, where we don't have a complicating number of permutation choices the account for, so we know easily enough that the probability for no sixes is 5/6 to the power of 6, which happens to be about .33, when I'm not mistaking. So we have about 0.67 chance of indeed throwing at least one six with six dices.

There are various lessons to be learned here, the obvious one about the complement of the probabilities being easier to compute. Also, it is a very everyday example, there is not much special about it, no conditional probablities, and yet the computation is not straightforward enough to be easy, only at the level of lets say standard statistics being applied, but when not in science mode, the problem requires a little thinking. The outcome itself is interesting enough, it could be estimated lower, one would normally expect from household considerations that a dice will have a 1/6 probability for each side to come up, so after six throws, we may expect that on the average, we have a fair chance of getting every side up.

Thinking a but further, what happens when we take simply one dice and throw n times? The first computation becomes tedious soon enough, though a computer can easily do it, the second is easy enough, we have a multiplying probablity sequence, with one more multiplication each time we throw again.

The final idea is not irrelevant, and is not unimportant in physics for instance, that is that apart from the big numbers law, where the expectation value of an experiments statistical variable is normally reached more and more with more samples takes into account,