Theo Verelst Email message

This message I sent to my former employer at Delft university, and a physics professor I've followed 2 postgrad courses with, which expresses some of the most prevalent thoughts about what might be and have been going on.

Please note, just as on the page pointed to, that the thoughts here are NOT FACTUALLY PROVEN, and need to be before I can firmly confirm that the situation is roughly as I indicate.

Comment any way you see fit, I need input.

The Message

        Wed, 13 May 1998 08:09:39 -0700 (PDT)
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Prof Dewilde, Prof Bauer,

For some years I've though about the subject I'm bringin up here, 
in connection with the treason I've experiened professionally.

I bring forward the thoughts I've had straighforward, perfectly 
aware of the possible implications, and perfectly aware of the 
fact that that accusations like these must be proven (and true), 
because I want to act in the open, and not sneakingly go behind 
peoples back.

But if they are true the amount of evil apart from my professional 
experience is so incredible for any reasonable human being that 
the only measures I can think of are rigorous.

I will start with a copy of a web page:
residing under the homepage
to outline what I'm talking about. The response to that 
will influence my further actions.
Needless to say that apart from the professional harm being done, 
it is completely unacceptable that so called respectable people 
would not just have been sidetracking because they lacked the 
professional skil to deal with me and my interests properly, 
but have done that to hide forms of power and sexual abuse that 
would be even shamefull to speak about. That would enrage me.

If these type of accusations are utterly untrue, I apologise
immedeately, and will of course not make any public or 
private acusations. If they are true, I've at least made clear 
where I stand (as does the Dutch constitution).

   Theo Verelst

Theo Verelst Possible Broader Picture of the Abusive
Structures around some people known to me.

The materials presented onthis page are my responsibility, and are not
to be copied, distributed,
processed (translated, transcribed) or presented outside the means of
direct internet references
without my explicit prior consent. 
I am perfectly aware of the grave accusations that these pages would
contain if their inferred
content is close to the truth, and have no other purpose with them,
then the purpose that any
law-abiding citizen should have, that is to expose situations where
crime is involved. That is:
they are not intended to be vindictive or unnessecarily bold, or
exegerated in terms of the
material they present, the purpose is justice, freedoom for possible
victims, and restoration of
what is theirs as much as possible. 
Most importantly I want to repeat from my other pages that the
material presented here is based
almost completely on the thoughts I received from various people I
know from the past who
communicated in spirit, and therefore the material is subjected to all
doubts that go with such a
connection (see my thoughts on page (will add reference)), and may be
completely wrong. I
repeat, all the material presented here is based on non-proven and
possibly non-reliable
information, ans should be taken as nothing else, only to open the way
for discussion and
possibly the gathering of proof if that is appropriate. For a final
time I want to repeat that it is
even possible that the persons I mention are on "good" side of the
line, and have been used to
project the thoughts concerning others on. If so, I apologize in
advance for possible damage, and
will make immediate corrections. 

Having said this, I also would like to stress that I am not going
about this easily, it has taken me
years to get to this point, and that I in general consider the people
that have communicated these
horrible thoughts in spirit neither insane, nor unreliable, nor of
evil intend or generally malicious. 
The subject is a grave one, and from other as yet unproven information
I gather that these type of
situations are a lot more general than I would have dreamed in my
worst nightmare, and that they
remain largely intact because of fear on the victims side to fight
them, or even make them public,
even if it were just for the sake of analysis. 

IFThese situations are the actual truth, I see no other objective
ahead of me then to crush them in
every way I see at my disposal, but only legitimate, and only after
sane and good consideration of
the effects. Currently, I am far from this, only information gathering
is my current purpose. 
If I sould be the swearing type, which I am not, I would say I hope to
God (the real one) I'm
completely wrong and out of line. When I'm realistic and read the
writing on the wall, I
unfortunately cannot be at ease that this will even remotely be the

Abusive sexual activities

These are summed up for as far as I am aware of them here (will add
link as I have time), and include
everything up to repeated almost lethal tortures, every means of
inducing fear, and are evidently completely
against the interest and will of the victims. 

Power Abuse

One may say this is a mafia type of power abuse, and includes the
putting an keeping in position of sexually and emotionally abusive 
and genrally severely corrupted people. 

Victims involved, and in which way
(see a significant portion of my WANTED list,

Alledged Purpetrators

I've been (I repeat in spirit, and without proof) informed about the
fact that there are several abuser circles,
with clear hierarchy. From someone from the wanted person list, backed
by others in and outside the same,
but as yet witouth verbal acknowledgement, I gathered that one of the
top circles in holland and some
environment include the following people: P. Dewilde and somoe others
at Delft University, parents of
Ingrid Vos, (...) deMey (not sure written correctly), Manuela Kemp,
and others. 
My own familily (according to one girls thoughts Manuela supposedly is
family, and there is some "pieter" (I've met previously)
for whom the same (unofficially) also is supposed to hold, or who is
also involved), that is my father and mother
and other relatives have been involved in seriously types of sexual
abuse as well, some also on the receiving
end, many on the inflicting end, and for my personal history I can
testify that many have been emotionally
abusive in the sense that what I considered the limitation of their
abilities was actually evil intent, and the
secrecy even concerning the whereabouts of people dear to me that I
considered discretion was malicious
and to cover up a lot of unjustice and a good term "taking of faces".
Pia and Wouter Hoff for instance who
I considerd equally hurt by a supposedly sectarian bible school have
repeatedly indicat4ed they know my
fist sexual relation, Tal Ben Zvi, and some very relevant people such
a Ingrid Vos, and refuse to even take
me seriously. 
The bible school, where I've been a model student, extremely giving,
and nothing demanding, has not even
bothered to deal with me in 5 years in tways of healing and
deliverance that I have assisted in various times
a week for years when I was there, and let me go without even a
greeting. From what I gather, this, and
unfortunately many other similar groups, has started as a coverup for
sexual and other types of abuse,
possibly even giving it a religeous "legitimation", and appearently in
some senses has stayed that. Wonder
why the writer of the course never wanted to visit them again. 
Not too long ago I picked up on the fact that also G Bauer was (is) on
the 'wannabee' list of some this
circle (if that's the right word) and has, probably in cooperation
with others, seriously, physially and
emotionally abused Ingrid Vos, who at the moment when I actively took
part in a post-grad physics course
was working around her graduation, just a bit furhter along the hall.
Some time before, I had met her at
home, and talked about my wanting to go to the US (princeton /HP) for
a few years, and didn't understand
why she was so timid, didn't ask me in, and didn;t want to talk about
her graduation work, while she did
say she wanted to have dinner with me, except later. I took that as
more or less the same as I had
indicated: that it is not so smart to start a relationship when she
needs to graduate, and I want to go away
for some time, and to wait until after this, with the later (in
spirit) communicated possibility that she might
join after her graduation. Somewhat later, when I wanted to talk with
her, but didn't know exactly how to
interpret her attitude, I walked by her workplace a few times to see
what was going on, and maybe talk
about what she did, and again didn't at all understand her appearent
anxiety, even fear in retrospect, and
neither did I understand nor like the fact that she said she didn't
want to be in contact, so at least I knew
that. I could live with that in the sense of the above reason, but
felt I had no choice to also later o respect
that desire, and lost contact because at the moment she started to
inform me about the horrible rites and
abuse that my own professor, maybe even at that time she didn't
include that, nor did I ask, inflicted on her,
I could hardly belief it and sought at least some visual confirmation
by driving by her house, and was so
disappointed and confused by her almost not showing anything that I
discarded her and her story until she
made clear she wanted to be with me again in the way I knew her,
because as I saw her some times, I
didn't know how to deal with her, and I couldn'd stand the thought of
being cheated on as our first coming
to gather still felt to me, so I told her in spirit and showed her
visually that if I couldn't meet with the Ingrid I
knew and had started to love (and to allow myself to do that), she
could take a hike. I was quite unsubtle in
both languages. That was because I doubded the whole means of
communication, and on top of that the
story, and the expected resonse didn't make sense to me: I wanted her
anyway, wanted to deal with the
problems to the best of my capabilities, so why couldn't I relate to
her as before? 
In retrospect, my capabilities, understanding, and christian assesment
of the situation weren't at all as she
told I would need, and I didn't by far have a real idea of what I was
dealing with and how much fear this
induced. Quite frankly, I still don't have any direct proof, except
the completely unreliable behaviour of my
project leader and professor, not even giving me a followup project
while this and a PhD and a setup of
contact to spend time in the US, while contentwise I delivered what I
promised in the project (on time, the
rest three year later still doens't work at the level I prepared), the
being completely sidetracked and not
taken seriously when I even conceded in continuing to work without
official pay to finish texts that I indeed
devlivered but where not at all taken up on, having close people
trying to proclaim me nuts to render me
incapable of being ever taken serious again at the desired leading
research level, and eventually being
forced to either accept an image of myself that not even I would
rcognize as myself anymore for its
limitation and the amount of insult gien to me, right to the point of
being forced on the street. 
Only very recently I finally got solid, written proof that indeed in
my familily, and with connecitons to
university, things have been going on that indeed are of the weight to
warrant such treatment, and induce so
much fear and shame that no one is willing to make this public. Not
satisfying, but at least a point to start up
again from, and to start to seriously deal with this situation,
preferably with people I want to share my life
with irrespective of all this, but who now also have the unfortunate
role of being able to confirm with actual
proof what has been and in some form undoubtably is still going on. 
I should add, that in the time Ingrid started to communicate with me
in spirit, I had also just taken up on my
christian faith again, with as a main interest the right assesment of
the two sexual relations I had had in the
meanwhile, which I, in that respect found only harmfull in the sense
that the persons involved (Tal Ben Zvi
(IL) and Andrea Schwyter (CH)) had ununderstandable motivations to not
tell me what excactly went on,
and were forced to this mystery preserving attitude by the situation
very coursely outlined above, and
fullfilling and rewarding in other senses. That didn't coincide with
the one woman only until you die image I
had, and I'd started by coincidence and command to look at and persue
the right translation of some
Again I want to pont at the notices on top of the page, and gladly
receive any correction from any source. 

What did I know, and when?

Very unfortunately, none of my close relative or "friends" have
informed me of the possibility of even the
existence of these type of situation, and it took me until some 3
years ago. The last year I worked in Delft
university, Ingrid Vos has started to inform me about several of these
situations, waiting with the people I've
worked with until I had no longer a workplace there. From then on, I
have started to seriously think and
read, unfortunately only after I lost (physical) touch I took all she
said completely serious, and was informed
also about the problems she had at that point. (see also other pages
(refs later)).