Theo Verelst Wanted page

Because of some quite extraordinary personal circumstances, which only recently have been admitted to be the result of serious fears and shames in my family and in relation with my former employer (Delft University), I only know feel in a situation to resume some of the contacts that I lost by being stuck in Amsterdam without proper means of transportation and communication (with the lucky exception of good old email), and especially because of not having the faintest possiblity of ascertaining what forces actually were (and are) the source of my idiotic situation.

There are some people who I more or less instensively and intimately have been with in the past that I can't reach at the moment, and some of my other pages can give some clear indication of the possible reasons for that, but who I would very much like to be in touch with again. Considereing the situation I'm only now getting a little bit of tangible evidance for has existed for a long time in my life already, some contacts go back guite some years. I presume that some computerized people can provide some possibly indirect links to them, so this seems at least a reasonable starting point to try to restart some contact, this time with at least some ideas of what actually may have been the case with some of the people I was lucky to spent time with.
I realize that most of the information on this page os of a very personal nature, but since various people have already deemed it legitimate to peek into and distribute widely significant information stolen from every personal belonging I have, I guess that won't be too much of a difference. Besides, I have nothing to hide (I think). Can one put himself so naked on the internet? Remember a woman who scorned David for dancing naked got infertile as a punishment of God ... (if you believe in Him at all, otherwise just consider me a touch excentric with good motivation).

If some of the people I write about feel indignified because of a breach of privacy I apologize and suggest a fast message in the guestbook or over email to get their names and things they shared with me of this page. Again, I only want to be in touch with some people I loved again, and see no more efficient, and broadly scoped (some are from abroad) way of doing it.

What does he think he is doing?

Since many of the people I mention on this page (and yes, I do have a fairly diverse and serious range of (even reachable) male friends and acqaintances as well) are women, it is a logical question what I see as legitimate and desirable possible relations. Again I would like to point at some of my other pages (...) to emphasize that I take it as very possible that various persons on this page have had to do with possibly very serious types of both sexual and power abuse, and that my interest in them is in spite of this. That is: it might explain behaviour that I couldn't deal with in the past, it is not the reason that I want to be in touch, and it will not stop me from having any kind of relation with all that it seems fitting with.

More history and thoughts

Personal history and thoughts (Latest Update 15 april 1998): some more on the subject of abuse and about the development of my thoughts on the subject and some of the people whom it (possibly) concerns.

Ingrid Vos

Also see above link.

Melinda de Meij

Tal Ben Zvi (IL)

I met her in Barcelona (esp), while staying in a yought hostel with a group of people from Holland, after having been on a joint address near Berga (Pyrenees), while having dinner. Some of the members of the group I was traveling with appearently invited her (or possibly knew her, but I can olny guess), and we started talking while walking in the area afterwards. In short we spent a long night in the area of the Barcelona market (which is far from desolate in summer nights), got closer, and decided (on her proposal) to travel further together. After some conversing, because there was a limited numbers of cars to travel with, and because until a little before I had agreed to travel further with another girl from the group, who appearently (unfortunately, because I liked her a lot) changed her mind, we agreed to meet again at the home af a girl who was staying in her parents house in France,and who I had promised to visit, possibly with some people from the group. I didn't know exactly what she wanted, I lived in the same house for two years with her, and it was clear that we had something valuable, but since she started sleeping with someone else after having been out with her one night, I didn't know exactly what to expect (I had no idea about what realy may have been going on), and from our communication before I left, there were expectations of having more than a casual relation, bit to my knownledge she was at that point still in another relationship. All a bit complicated, but it makes clear that the situatio of me arriving with someone I would sleep with may well have caused hardship for her, even though I called her upfront, and though she showed similar behaviour and appearently didn't think bad of it.

I short, the rest of the story is that we went over Orleans (where we found our first hotel), to Paris, stayed there a few weeks visiting amoung other things a lot of art exhibitions (she was an art/geography major), lived in a borrowed tent, and visited someone I knew from a popmusic workshop in a small village in the north of France. After she hitch hiked to London, I returned to Holland to arrange some work affairs, and we were aware of the difficulties of continuing the relationship, since Israel is both for away from Holland and from the US, where I wanted to go.

After some not so easy phonecalls (for probably a whole lot more profound reasons than I was arare of, because why would she have such great difficulty traveling along to my home?), I decided to go to London, where we could stay in a friend's appartment for another few weeks, and spent most time together, and some with the girl who lived there visiting and going out in various places in London and Cambridge.

The at that point hard ending was, that we agreed to travel some more to Berlin or Prague (using my car again, and after some financial arrangements), buit she backed out on that, by telling me right before the metro entrance, knowing I had to catch my bus back for university matters, that she didn't want to go on any more at all. From someone with who only several days before an important issue was wether or not she was pregnant, and what to possibly do about that (those condoms weren't for nothing), that is quite a cold shower.

Remember that I didn't have a clue as to the real reasons for a lot of behaviour, also when she wrote me that she didn't love enough to go on (which was rather a contrast with her wanting to meet later in the US as I would getr there, and with her own drive to persue the relation in the first place), and that I also didn't understand her difficulties with me coming to Israel, which on my later salary would have been very easy, first she seemed to want to draw me by making clear academics in Israel meet high standards, later she ade clear she didn't want me there because of the dangerous circumstances.

Andrea Schwyter (CH)

I met her on a new years party in Amsterdam, and if at that point I'd still have my christian moral of 4 years or so before, I would have to be forgiven of sleeping with someone the first night. Luckily, I can simply observe that it was one of the better things that happened (by mutual agreement and choice), and it led to a relationship where for some time I very much enjoyed her company and the house she had in Switserland. I wanted to take her to the US if I would get there, but at that point it seemed all too much for her, and it ended up that the last time I visited her a few years ago we still (from the looks of it both) had pretty much the same feelings, without the (for me desirable) continuous relationship (emotional and sexual).
Too me it seemed that it was a bit too much for her, she worked as physio therapist and probably wanted her own business, and driving over on a weekend and planning on going far abroad isn't directly compatible with a logical continuation of life in Biel. Some time ago, as of course (see above link) I communicated with her in spirit, it became horribly clear that a whole lot more has been going on than simple choice, "dein Fater is ein Verbrecher", doesn't sound very irrelevant to me.
I tried to send a letter to an old address recently, but it bounced, I guess too much was (and is) going on, I have a number, so if I manage a phonecard I will try and call her if it feels right. A nice recharge time in switserland doesn't sound too far from a little paradise to me.

Lisa (Lamree ?)

Josette Peijnenborg

I had a band with her as lead singer, we met at a pop-music workshop in Delft, and were on the verge of having a more than friendly relationship for quite some time,

Wendy Hoff (currently ?)

Marion Knoester

Andreas Pruess (DE)