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Wed sept 19 2001, 12:13 PM
I've decided after good example to write some diary pages with toughts
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Wed 19 Sept 2001, 12:12 PM
Of course I've thought and communicated about the latest deliberate desasters
in new york, and my main thought has been to want to know what is behind
such irrational behaviour, just like, and maybe simular to other kinds of
evil I'm faced with for some time already.
This section will be on one of the themes surrounding the recent plane
assaults that I can trace to new testament logic, and I think they are
relevant, probably especially in europe. This weekend I was reading the
New Internation Version translation, which speaks about 'the madening wine
of her fornication', which made me wonder about the term 'madening', from
the greek lookup I did yesterday it seems that the word is destructive or
something to that extend, but I should check all verses and every word.
The persuit of happyness.
James 1, the first book of the new testament ever written, as far as
I can trace speaks about something in the line of the desirabilty to lead
the way in the implementation of happyness and what is pleasurable, assuming
the right is there, and that the perfect law of freedom God gives not just
enables this, but assumes one takes on that role.
I was wondering wether the image mentioned in that same biblebook of the
ripples or waves could also be in the same image of the reflection, sort
of like mirroring oneself in a water, and messing the image up by making
Ther might be many alternative explanations to the rain comparison, but I
remember the old testament story as we have it in our translation where Elijah
(I think it was) has to do with a woman ruler jezebel who persecutes and
who seems to have made god punish the country by having a dry period for
already three years, and the prophet elia is told to go to a mountain because
he prayed for rain and God said it would come, which first doesn't happen,
and then a little cloud appears, and afterward it rains and there is some
runnning of that same person I think in fleeing from a ruler, I should read
it again, this was primary school...
The catholic teaching about the reason for man being on earth is in line
with the stairway to heaven kind of babylonic teaching where man has the
insulting position of being able to earn their way to God, which is not in
line with the old or new testament: in the old God chose his people,
the jews, who were given the priviledge of the law and indeed works
within that election to make them aware of Gods mercy of salvation, and how
that was to be brought about, filled in by the coming of Jesus. In the new
testament, salvation is under the law of mercy and grace, as a free
gift, and of course as response one will want to honour the One giving it,
preferably by listening to what He makes clear of commands. The stairway
to heaven song (led zeppelin, of course) sais well what horrible deep sadness
and sorrow and gloomy hopelessness and forced works there are in the babylonic
type of building a tower to the heavens and climbing its stairs. One would
better take a rocket, and find out God isn't necessarily nearer even on the
moon or mar, and is probably not very impressed with such buildings, as compared
to the size of His universe.
So we must all team with the rulers (it sais 'presbeturoi' also translated
as 'elders') of the earth who are convinced by a strong delusion that the
only way to get some of Gods life is to commit adultary against Gods spirit
together with that great mother of whores who sits over the waters with the
abominations in her cup. The city on the seven hill where she is supposed
to have started her New Babylon in the time of writing of revelation was
commonly known to be Rome, where Peter is lied about has having been the
the stone on which the catholic system has been built, while in fact that
rock is Christ and Peter is only one of the stones in the comparison.
Israel was very warned for babylon, its idols, its ways and its sacrifices,
before in punishment it was taken there in exile, which I'm sure was very
unpleasurable. In new testament we are supposed to demask reveal or unveil,
expose and bring down the mysteries that make the babylonic lie work.
What is it that the rulers of the earth are intoxicated with the whine of
the fornication of that great whore, there must be a damnation God gives
to make it so that those 'self'-es and their images of themselves and the
world and they in it see nothing else than that miserable system.
Since such convictions are of a religious nature, and alternative may be
to have no religion at all in leading places, though I'm sure that the general
work of the Holy Spirit to convince of sin and judgement isn't missed by
many altogether, it was historically not a bad idea to seperate the affairs
of state mainly from any form of general religion.
I guess what goes with the fruit of that great whore as a semi religeous
spiritual babylonic system of beliefs, sacrifices, rituals, mysteries are
fellow and counter reactions like 'the joy of wrape', obviously a cynical
statement, not so hard to give position in the whole of sin, the idea that
some great nazi beast must be given authority to get away from enduring the
great motherf* all day long. But when people check up on every move, probably
not all can be tracked and copied all the time, so probably the ones God
sends are of prime interest, being under an altar or not, it seems their
blood is tasty, according to the revelation image. I'm sure the taking or
stealing of faces (see the greek for 'accepting persons') as in copying peoples
face, and trading with the assumes identity is clear enough and important
enough image in James, and that the first new testament warning, before the
antichrists and the nicolaitian (catholic) system swarmed the world, is to
be taken for one of the main ones for this dispensation of grace, and that
the change in the new babylon has to do with the copying of the true Christ
and Holy Spirit by those seeking power, glory, riches, and making and keeping
of lies in deluded ways.
When that whole miserable game has its counterpart in the destructiveness
and poorness in spirit and soul that makes for mafia systems and their political
counterparts, people may want oppression of others to compensate for ones'
own enslavement, or hurt others like you've been hurt/ are affraid to be
hurt, and the whole becomes unworkable hell soon enough, as probably to some
degree was the intention of the one making people deluded enough to belief
such as is described in the book of revelation and warned for in more than
a few new testament letters, because I'm sure it takes a strong delusion
to belief in the mysterries of the great whore and to want to become drunk
with spiritual adulterousness while God mercy is freely available. Probably
to make sure sane enough persons like John would only be appalled and amazed
at such misery and stupidity.
In all this, the authority of Christ is the same as it has ever been,
just as well as the spiritually legal positio of serious believers.The final
authority over this world and over life and death is of Christ, as it is
clearly stated, e.g. 'I (Jesus) have the keys to death and hades', that means
no matter what tricks the world systems or one of its components want to
occupy itself with, and with the aid of pathetically power greedy satanists
maybe prepare if they think they can for centuries, based on the prophecies
of the Spirit who is the spirit of truth, the final power always is still
with that Son of God who defeated even death and who is holy and mercyful,
no matter how much a rock of offence He might be to them who seek to take
His obviously powerful place.
In all these games, besides sanity and obiedience to the true God, discernment
appears to be of esential value, meaning the capacity to discern what is
what and who is who in spirit and the perseverance to stick with that.
Is the statue of mary also miraculously that same person with that authority
(gmpf)? Can the Holy Spirit be discerned from occult sources, of which
the historic head loves to present itself as angel of light (and not of
Of courtse, but I'm sure the words of Peter are quite true, that there is
a strong delusion in this world which for reasons God has keeps many, many
form sticking with the obvious in this respect.
The corruption in the world is of course a major root for desiring a
lie ratherr than the truth. It is mentioned clearly enough that those who
follow the real Jesus will: Acts (3?): escape from the curruption in this
world (though we don't get away from the world).
Fake religions and their place
All untrue religions will in the end be gathered up into a whole by the
great whore of the new babylon, and that process can historically already
be easily traced i a major way.
Why are people in fake religions? Are they 'given' by the Holy Spirit
? Are they dangerous? What is the only cure ?
Just some questions and statement that I leftin place after I did some quick
thinking about the subjects. Without question, the subject of demonically
inspired, and therefore without question also spiritually relevant (though
usually stupid and lame and invariably bad for its believers and others)
religions is ancient and completely covered already in biblical writing,
and from the old testament prophets it seems that every essential variation,
it horrors and Gods dealings with them is know already for thousands of years,
so there most likely is nothing new under the sun in that department. God
is agaisnt them. God is almighty, and when he is made jeleous of His own
spirit, he is always the stronger party, which becomes clear only when in
the end or soon enough He makes the necessary corrections.
There is usually no profit at all living in a delusion, it would seem, deamons
and the persons making up the various delusive systems are neither a very
pleasant or trustworhty or giving party, and when God is tempted so to speak
to be mercyfull for the sake of profit of mankind, I don't think He'll often
make it worth their while.
Not meaning to advertise, I tried the demo's of both the 'B4' and the 'pro-52'
instrument simulation programs again, after I installed windows 2000 on a
reasonable machine for the job, which apart from obvious keyboard hassle is
worth quite some playing effort. Both instruments may not be quite the real
thing, but certainly offer their share of imitation and sound power, and
its even possible to put both to work simulatneously and then run a midi in
media player to play along with. Some string chords with a lesleyed and drive-d
b3 hand-wide chord with various rich and subtle drawbar settings would be
worth having the real things, a sequencer, and a good amp.
I've tried the string simulator with openGL, and I can get at least 3 strings
in realtime, and the opengl stuff compiles and runs fine under 2000 with cygwin,
a almost 1000 squared pixel truecolor screen with few hundred polygon smooth
shaded models (for instance from glui examples) renders fast enough to have
smooth enough part of a second updates when rotated, though the update of
the glui compoments in the 2d windows can be quite slow, even to the point
of being not good enough, and texts can't be cut and paste'ed, which is not
so nice for string simulator interface, though won't stop me from a prototype
interface making all filter, non-linear and
initialisation paramers (run-time) accessible.
The Tcl httpd web server runs fine, just as bwise, except that the
tcl/tl 8.3.3 or so I installed because I happened to have downloaded it is
sometimes unstable, which is mentioned though, and as it seems not dependent
on machine or operating system.
Sat Oct 6 2001, 20:00PM
As a good habit going through the latest new york review of books, which
arrive in the library I often read them irregularly, I last time was going
through the latest two, one of them almost starting of with an article from
a dissident chinese person, now teaching at an american university, who
experienced the chinese authorities questioning him quite long and hard
when visiting his family in china, of course for being somehow a threat
to the established leadership.
The subject being a leftish subject of all times on a century timescale,
I was of course well aware of in my student time and before, though it
seems to have been sort of absent for some time, apart from the general
human rights issue, which I recall having been brought forward in political
Of course china is far away, though big and of military and growing economical
and environmental relevance, but I vividly remember books I read as teenager
about those wanting to profess their christian faith in that and other countries
and being persecuted for wanting to live (genuinely, I hope) according to
the teachings of a jew two thousand years ago calling himself the actual
son of god, appearantly with geneology, wisdom, miracles and signs making
Himself credible. They were harrassed, put in prison, tortured and even put
to death, and had to lead a very uncertain life for their beliefs, even
in the time 'enlightenment' of certain kinds struck the chinese continent.
Because I was conscously occupying myself with a faith I considered private
and certainly not open for censorship in that time, too, I could easily
understand the agony of people in such a horrible place in more than one
way, even though they weren't starving as more than a few on this earth
for some reason seem to end up. I found it important that there were people
occupying themselves with such a situation and the people in it, for instance
getting them bibles when they want, and other kinds of encouragement or
In the same time I was quite aware of the lets say not all too good
types of faith who would only be alternative power systems of possibly the
same oppressive nature as the regimes they may suffer from, but being a
fair person myself, I could imagine people suffering simply because of their
beliefs is a bad thing luckily raised centuries ago in the west, and outlawed
since. It seems to me that there are more than a few people quite unaware
of the value and necessity of such rules for letting a law of relative
freedom work at least enough to live with. Since the alledged bankrupcy
or extintification of principles maybe a decade or two ago, raising the
then (in circles I was in or read or saw programs about) obvious enough
subjects of self-determination (freedom according to also dutch constitution
in general, to chose one's own labor, and be unhindered in uttering religeous
and personal beliefs), of letting the extreme go to hell (talk with such
or simply ignore them to death), being in favour of some amount of mercy
and fair distribution of resources and power, and being aware of the implications
of privacy infringing measures such as obligatory ID's, car tracking devices
like for payroads, phone tapping in general and by state institutions, etc,
isn't even easy to begin with, or get serious agreement on, let alone implement
or deal with easily. Where the right wing side would be that certain private
rights mustn't be meddled with too much, and the mid field would need to
reconcile the 'christian' side of things with finances and the f* the authoratative
rulers attitude in various variations.
Or was it just my idee-fix that things could more or less run that way?
No, I'm sure, but what happened? No more ideologies, why is that?
After ample consideration and lets say perception and observation, only
a few very unhonorable reasons seem to survive above the surface of possibilities,
being of a evil mankind and religeous nature. In short, when the illuminati
are for real, and I'm sure they still are in various forms, and indeed responsible
for instance for the financing of major parts of both world wars, as I belief
is more than credible, their quest for world dominion in lets say human
and riches and power structure sense must not have ended yet, and so many
evil rich people with nothing else to do then spent their incredible amounts
of riches on such purposes must have effect.
The other, less general and acceptable reason seems to lie in the spiritual
and the religeous. Historically very valid: when people realy belief in
some truth or lie, it will affect their lives considerably, and decisively
even to live and death at times.
I'm sure the for instance satanists I also read about long ago still
exist, though I think not so gloriously, and freighten unstable souls, people
of evil considerations and of wrong religions, for instance.
Historically, the groups may not coincide, but definately exhibit overlap,
and the combination may be quite influential for groups of people not stably
routed in sanity of proven value. The concept of demagogues and 'fuehrers'
and evil intended religeous persons and parties of authority (like historically
the catholic power system) of course not being very usefull for the edification
in sanity and soberness of the masses of people who may be more interested
in the hidden messages in some soap series than obtaining a solid and sane
enough world view with the power to last and make them themselves thrive
instead of wither and become senseless and replacable slaves of and system
of exploitation and evil intent.
In the times of the old testament, and still, there were people almost
exclusively occupying themselves with the miserable ways of raising up sacrifice
meat and engaging in all kinds of secret or miserable rituals where the
moloch or baal or mammon deamons would need to be somehow satisfied. The
medicin men or high priests or whatever of such cults would be considered
head magicians or something, and stay in power through their horribleness,
cunningness, the aid of chinese fireworks during seances, or, as is world
history, by working on peoples counsciousness and nerves and religeous feelings
None of them is even remembered much, and there is no speak of enlightenment
of any kind with probably any single one of them, though without question
their followers had to kiss quite some * to keep their egos in a state where
they'd be satisfied to know that they realy were the only representatives
of almighty God on this earth, or at least can get away with claiming some
kind of occult incredibleness until that true God gets down on them in the
Luckily for me and many others, there were man who did think about the
essence of life, and about sanity and about what can make the world be saved
instead of tick towards its own (probably deserved) doom.
I'm sure that the Holy Spirit would have picked another man (or woman)
if Calvin or Luther wouldn't have been serious about such work, but all
the same, the 'progress' western society has been mercified with has produced
official consitution quite in line with sanity and blissfull biblical values,
state systems with intrinsic values for freedom and truthfull and credible
and sane enough leadership, which should very much not be taken for granted,
or drawn from by taking their power away and erode them by fundamental corruption.
It is not hard to make a babylonic mythical system, and sacrifice everyone
to the first demon that comes along and laughingly die in pain. It is not
easy to live according to democratic values, and persue happiness and use
and maintain freedom for good, and deal with the world and its subsystems
sanely at least. That takes more than a lame mind, a satanist stupidy and
mother worship, going along with every obviously corrupted lead from hidden
circuits with little personal gains, or acceptance of unequality in this
world on the basis of complete unjustice.
It is easy to blame the jews for taking all the riches in the world and
mess up the upright northeners calling themselves by the name of some ancient
indians who knew all to well they were not the chosen ones holding the laws
of the eternal god. It is easy to say and follow that an incredible sacrifice
of the masses of these people will of course offset an incredible change
in the spiritual, and have almost incredible effects, as all natural people
with a gut feeling from mother gaia off course already knew very well before
they were born, though of course such illucent Eternal Knowledge is only
disclosed to a few velly special and great chosen ones.
Seriously I have the idea I daily pass some by for who such stupidity
is nothing in comparison with what they buy in their own lives.
Seriously, how does one fight such stupidity ?
By exposure, truth, spiritual power, and most obviously by staying sane
enough, for instance to point at the motication the average layman must
have outside religeous consideration, which would better be true, to buy
it that those incredible leading circles have more money and goods then
most ever see together, yet demand others to work without ever a chance
to get free even, and never give away some of their riches to show their
good intentions to the many work or socuak security slaves. Bit gullible,
Why should gouvernment leaders who live of non-negligable, more the
average wages by other peoples tax money get away with being more stupid
or irresponsible then I and get the glory and my honour on top of it? Let
them be tested and work towards good enough purposes with intelligent persons
following them to make sure they don't mess up. That is all not too hard
to understand, but if a majority of the dutch are quite into the dutch demonic
authority of schizofrenia control, or its alternative, the indonesian 'wajang'
because otherwise they's look so poor spiritually compared to some very
important persons, try and explain them the the giving over of children
to one of the parties available thereto is actually not a good idea, or
purpose in life, and certainly not christian, and the people with salaries
to lead a country shouldn't even be into that shit, as a selection criterion
to give them such a position in the first place. There is evil enough in
the world as it stands already, there is no need for more.
In Paradise lost, this poem is quoted refering to the threats of the various
'gods' through our history, and the relevance, probably, of realizing the
new testament, considering Pauls' encounter with the greek, and his probably
being taken more than a little serious by them, has not little to say about
See, they return; ah, see the
Movements, and the slow feet,
The trouble in the pace and the
See, they return, one, and by one,
With fear, as half-awakened;
As if the snow should hesitate
And murmur in the wind,
and half turn back;
These were the "Wind'd-with-
Gods of the winged shoe!
With them the silver hounds,
sniffing the trace of air!
the swift to harry;
These the keen-scented;
These were the souls of blood,
Slow on the leash,
pallid the leash-men!
1949, p. 24)
Mon Oct 8 2001, 16:15PM
Still not having tricked or convinced the windows 2000 server to do all network
stuff I wat it to do, though not at all dismayed because much is clear enough,
at least there is no problem doing some major things of use, such as trying
the tcl server, in fact I've also tried the infocetera web server and utlity
suite, which runs fine, and lets user make their accounts, agendas with shared
information on a tcl based server with as it seems good performance and good
maintainablility, letting my library with pcom and bwise and other routines
run and be tested, also with the perseus greek lookup tools, though I noticed
they seem to have changed the greek coding and text format. The hgedit windows
with greek and hebrew typable and convertable characters and web page generator
works fine, and it may be worth it letting the persues greek lexicon be scanned
for some parts of the greek of the new testament, automatically, building
a local database of complete and hopefully correct greek tranlations.
I've downloaded j2ee and at least the two or three most relevant servers
run fine, letting a test sql database be accessed from java serverbased pages
with the example address book application, which at least is significant
contemporary knowledge, it seems, though it remains a bit far out there to
use a compiled language on a virtual machine the way java does, and efficiency
is probably not great, package size wise and execution timewise. The whole
of tcl/tk and their web server example is maybe a few megabytes, and run
quite efficient in terms of server data throughput, while java jdk 1.3 alone
is over 30 Megabytes download already, and j2ee at least the same, which
is noting much for a modern machine, but still an incredible amount of code
to serve some database embedded web pages with authoring and encryting.
A small tcl library I tried to do xml parsing, in a scheme a bit like the
ancient lex, and some of the j2ee example xmls can easily be read by it,
which makes much in that world come together easiily.
I''ve put the synth tape
I made some time ago in a windows media file, its big, about 5 meg, but
I'll see if it fits on my site, so those interested can hear the Z80 machine
in practice which is described on my synth pages. It is a digitisation of
an audio cassette tape from my walkman, through a regular soundcard, so far
from perfect, and of course the audio encoding doesn't help top hifi specs
either, but the impression is useful enough.
With the use of media encoder, I captured
some demonstration version b3 and prophet5 imitation programs played on
the computer keyboard, which is without question fun. Both these files are
windows media files, and not specifically prepared, they are raw materials.
I'll see it i see chance to make some decent mp3 cuts with examples, that
at least would be good advertisement.
I've just tried downloading the latter soundfile, which is not fine just
clicking, but with the right button in netscape using 'save as..' works fine
it seems. I noticed that sometimes windows media player sound distorted and
uglu while for instance the yahoo player sound fine, I didn't check it out,
just a comment.