Theo Verelst Diary Page

Thu 26 july 2001, 12:58 PM

I've decided after good example to write some diary pages with toughts and events.

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Thu Jul 26 2001, 12:58 PM

Monday and tuesday were dedicated to a successfull (old) drivers licence retrieval trip to schipluiden near delft near the hague, by bike to save some cash. One day to the hague, through the dunes for some part, ending at the beach near and in scheveningen, the tourist place in the hague, the other day visiting the towns department for civil affairs in the little place I've lived for years, and incidently even the police department, and Delft university library, and a woman I hadn't seen a number of years, which was good.

The bike trip, without gears, was fun enough, good weather, not much wind, which reminds me, saturday I was invited to a sailing trip, with quite different weather conditions, wind force 4 or 5, which is not nothing considering the boat was about 5 meters long, and not affraid to take on the ijselmeer, which is the main water in the middle of the netherlands. I'd never sailed it, and now I had the chance to take on the little polyesther boat with hut and heavy enough deep keel through its waves, and feel and think about boat properties and the quiet strength and work and rest at the same time involved in sailing when expertise isn't swamped in bad pupils or general uncapable fellow sailors, no matter how entertaining they may be.

Anyhow, about 80 kilometers or so biking for two days is not a problem, it seems, and fun enough, given circumstance. In the town I lived for quite some years, I found that the police office is in a house where a room is rented by them, and they are not allowed by the house owner to put a 'police' sign in the garden or over the entrance, which is ludicrous enough to note. Seriously.

The woman I met again I've regularly been near for years, and noticed regularly having lets say problems with the live systems she had to do with, most probably for reasons I at the time didn't think much about.

It was nice seeing her again, she had just bought a harmonium, as it seems a good enough one, registration wise, though the air system seemed low on storage capacity, which i didn't play for more than a few chords. As in the time I regularly was near her, she has an interest in occupying herself with music, including forms of modern jazz.

I found this picture on a CNN report on an eruption of the sicilian etna vulcano, no knowing wether the word is coincidental, and though it has a nice quality in it, though that is easy to say just looking at the picture and not having a house nearby.

Does AP mean they hold the copyright ? Or is such consideration mainly in place for small bearely surviving press agencies
(I just (9 Aug 2001) put another image here, because it seems the orignal one at the cnn site has vanished. )

Being on the lake with someone from Fryslan (which is a northern dutch province with distinctive past), and driving around in the Hague a bit (my birth and yought town), I was quite reminded of various unpleasant properties of other environments and thinking modes, pfeew, holy linzen, some do suck bad.

I was thinking about what it means in james that 'you have faith, I have works', and why is the weather so predominant, as in the end of the new testiment epistle? Just like thinking about the parabel or better put the story of the 5 wise and 5 unwise 'virgins' (is that sort of like 'hymns', but different ?), as happended last week with some people at the salvation army bible study I regularly visit. What the hell are those virgins. I might be caught in not knowing my greek classics sufficiently, or not being aware of common jewish tales or thoughts, but I don't get the point much of virgins waiting for a groom, some being stupid about buying fuel for their lamps while waiting, and even though they have in the end seem to have gotten it, and found their way to the place where the groom and the others are, are completely unackowledged in their identity and left outside the party or whatever it is that is going on. Note that the groom is not married to them, and that the bride, which is in other places mentioned as a type for the church made of Christs' own people, though it is unwise to compare comparisons, is not in this picture.It seems to me that there various standard christian rules to forsake at least some others, and to make sure some at least don't stay virgins in the sense meant in the original language, or some fake construction around such ideas, and that people who alledgedly preach the word of God in these areas would better damn well know what they are doing, because besides me there someone who is for certain above them who will judge what they do with His words.And the damnation that can come from abusing Gods words, especiall when it does realy matter can be more than considerable, in fact world wise bablyon and great misery for ages.

Thou shalt not covet .... So marry them, and they are forever fired from the obligation (a dutchism) of taking responsibility to be with who God may have ordained, instead of with some watchdog or at least ill gotten spouse.

At least that seriously works to make sure the system can own people properly again, babylon invite them to find realy much better ways in their next mistery circles, and the family can stay invited in the picture to make sure that the flesh stays weak.I'd rather have equality and fraternity, and freedom thank you very much. 'Bless you my son, but not while making unmarried priests seem like incapable little stephan competitors'.'Me little poor moslim, me clean trains, me want holy life back Me give holy life once, me want holy life back once, or me make jihad'. Just kidding? A little sour makes the whole lump sour, what does a little yeast do, and what a little mustard seed? Who is going to preach about that? At least freeman cs. got their false religions right, neatly organised enough even, and in paperback form, as I remember. I was browsing through Floyd McClungs' biography aptly called 'at the doorstep of the Devil', about for a major part his mission (if that is what it was) in amsterdam. One chapter is called 'ik ben een amsterdammer' (I am an amsterdammer). Oh o.

Lets have some things quite aptly summed up by a writer from about 20 centuries ago, originally a (married it seems) fisherman who believed a man who would die on a cross and lived again, as he claims:

                                              King James Version (KJV)

                                                  2 Peter - Chapter 2

                        2Pe 2:1
                                But there were false prophets also among the people,
                                even as there shall be false teachers among you, who
                                privily shall bring in damnable heresies, even denying the
                                Lord that bought them, and bring upon themselves swift
                        2Pe 2:2
                                And many shall follow their pernicious ways; by reason of
                                whom the way of truth shall be evil spoken of.
                        2Pe 2:3
                                And through covetousness shall they with feigned words
                                make merchandise of you: whose judgment now of a long
                                time lingereth not, and their damnation slumbereth not.
                        2Pe 2:4
                                For if God spared not the angels that sinned, but cast
                                [them] down to hell, and delivered [them] into chains of
                                darkness, to be reserved unto judgment;
                        2Pe 2:5
                                And spared not the old world, but saved Noah the eighth
                                [person], a preacher of righteousness, bringing in the
                                flood upon the world of the ungodly;
                        2Pe 2:6
                                And turning the cities of Sodom and Gomorrha into ashes
                                condemned [them] with an overthrow, making [them] an
                                ensample unto those that after should live ungodly;
                        2Pe 2:7
                                And delivered just Lot, vexed with the filthy conversation
                                of the wicked:
                        2Pe 2:8
                                (For that righteous man dwelling among them, in seeing
                                and hearing, vexed [his] righteous soul from day to day
                                with [their] unlawful deeds;)
                        2Pe 2:9
                                The Lord knoweth how to deliver the godly out of
                                temptations, and to reserve the unjust unto the day of
                                judgment to be punished:
                        2Pe 2:10
                                But chiefly them that walk after the flesh in the lust of
                                uncleanness, and despise government. Presumptuous [are
                                they], selfwilled, they are not afraid to speak evil of
                        2Pe 2:11
                                Whereas angels, which are greater in power and might,
                                bring not railing accusation against them before the Lord.
                        2Pe 2:12
                                But these, as natural brute beasts, made to be taken and
                                destroyed, speak evil of the things that they understand
                                not; and shall utterly perish in their own corruption;
                        2Pe 2:13
                                And shall receive the reward of unrighteousness, [as] they
                                that count it pleasure to riot in the day time. Spots [they
                                are] and blemishes, sporting themselves with their own
                                deceivings while they feast with you;
                        2Pe 2:14
                                Having eyes full of adultery, and that cannot cease from
                                sin; beguiling unstable souls: an heart they have exercised
                                with covetous practices; cursed children:
                        2Pe 2:15
                                Which have forsaken the right way, and are gone astray,
                                following the way of Balaam [the son] of Bosor, who
                                loved the wages of unrighteousness;
                        2Pe 2:16
                                But was rebuked for his iniquity: the dumb ass speaking
                                with man's voice forbad the madness of the prophet.

                        2Pe 2:17
                                These are wells without water, clouds that are carried
                                with a tempest; to whom the mist of darkness is reserved
                                for ever.

                        2Pe 2:18
                                For when they speak great swelling [words] of vanity,
                                they allure through the lusts of the flesh, [through much]
                                wantonness, those that were clean escaped from them
                                who live in error.

                       2Pe 2:19
                                While they promise them liberty, they themselves are the
                                servants of corruption: for of whom a man is overcome,
                                of the same is he brought in bondage.

Check my homepage for some interesting links to online bibles and such, and note that these verses are quite strong in the greek, too, they were not translated by some reformed doom preacher with a like for drama.

Oh, and is it realy necessary that people without lets say christian growth in normally understood biblical sense are put forward to lead or precede instead of those who obviously could actually teach and lead, instead of acting as correctors of wrongly placed speakers? Would make things easier. I used to think yeleousy was about feeling done short, but I'm sure quite different motivations and sins are at stake when a whole country or even the world system and especially its religeous branches are involved. Who is going to teach me about holyness, obedience, two major subjects in old and new testament, and live for some period at least a living example of it? Who is honest in their lives to begin with anyway, even to themselves? I mentioned the swaggert 'itching ears' article not without reason, and though many may receive the teachers they deserve, or at least be deluded as a result of their evil intentions, I don't agree that such should be rule in christianity where there are some who do take themselves and their religion at least serious.

Just because I was thinking about the subject, hopefully with permission a slide picture from a stanford professor's lecture notes, in this case an older (older than 2001, I knew it years ago) example of what a good enough to be interestng rendering program can do with a completely synthetic graphics scene.

For graphics experts, it is definately fun to contemplate about the reasons for various lets say inaccuracies or errors in light and shadow patterns, for instance due to limited accuracy in scene tesselation and light transport computations.

A as it seems prominent reformed psychology professor was mentioned in a newspaper article as having a major interst in "the tension field between honesty in a person on one hand and fear on the other", which I think I can only sort of understand when I take a certain dutchness into account, otherwise I don't get the logic in such sentence.Why would there be a tension field between being honest and having fear? A tension field indicates it is the one or the other, or that the combination is generating a problem, but I don't see why it is thay there is tension between being honest and having fear, there might be a conseqential relation, fine, but not not a problematic combination. I can be affraid to have been, be or become honest, that makes sense. I can be honest to be affraid, or speak about fear in honesty, or have tension to become honest about my fears, that all makes sense, but as the article seemed to me, there is a state of mind involved which I find intrinsicly contradictory. Which might be the idea, like enigma won't tell its name, so at least a person is made not to make sense, which, like when David seems to have presented himself as a fool to some oppressive foreigner king, can be a survival strategy, though I wouldn't like it, and don't claim to have followed it. When the nazis are planning to hunt and gas to death all jews, decent enough civilians may well want to be untracible in their ways and thoughts to hide them and prevent collision courses before victory is credible or likely.